My whole world's upside down.

This past week has been a little rough. October 23 was(is) my Tito Pidong's death anniversary, then on the 24th I lost my grandpa, Celestino Aroc. My mom left for the Philippines on Sunday the 25th, and I'm so sad that neither my dad, my sister, nor I were able to accompany her. Losing her father is already a tragic experience, and I hated that she had to go alone. Afterwards, it started feeling like everything else was falling out of place. It's so hard when my entire family- immediate and extended- is such a major part of my life, and then have to watch it crumble. Fall brought so much more than a mere change in temperature.

On top of everything, I really miss Stephen. We had been looking forward to spending time together this weekend, and unfortunately that won't be happening. When we initially planned for him to visit, it was to do all the things we normally do together- movie dates, be fatasses together, play bingo. But after this past week, I was looking forward to him coming because I simply need him.

Oh well. As hard and devastating as this week has been, I just need to be strong and keep my head up.